Tuesday, December 23, 2008

This Has Really Turned Into Something..


I didn't sleep very well last night, I was too busy thinking. Some things were really bothering me. And it actually felt, I guess, good to post that poem. I wrote it. I didn't go through different websites looking for the perfect poem to express my feelings. So instead, I wrote two last night. I stayed up late trying to edit them and make them perfect to the best of my ability. I went to an online rhyming dictionary to find the best words to go with each other. It felt right to write about my feelings and get what I was thinking about out of my head. So here are the two that I wrote:

As I walk through the halls
I see your face in the crowd.
Your bright blue eyes staring back at me,
they seem to be screaming so loud.

I want to be able to tell you,
I just want to feel your touch.
But I don't think you'd understand.
I just love you way too much.

Even though I don't know if you truly love me,
You are the most trustworthy person I know.
I don't know what I would do without you.
What would happen to me if you were to go?

I wouldn't be able to survive
Without your eyes shining back at me.
Should I tell you how I feel?
Or should I just leave that up to destiny?

I think I will tell you what you mean to me,
I want to know what you have to say.
Do you truly love me?
If not, my world will turn to grey.

And the second:

These feelings I have for you can never go away,
You'll always have a special place in my heart.
I now know what you meant to me
Now that we're so far apart.

I'll never know if you liked me,
I never had a chance to ask.
Since I moved away from you
Finding out has been my task.

I've replayed conversations over and over,
Trying to remember the fun times we've had.
But not once can I remember

You ever making me mad.

You were perfect to me,
I'll never have a doubt.
Did you even know I existed?
I guess I'll never find out.


4 comment(s):

Ali said...

I'm sorry you didn't sleep well.

But on the bright side: those were AMAZING poems Victoria. I MEAN IT! AMAZING. But kind of sad though. Well the last one was.

!ии0cenT s!иce 1996. said...

wow!!both were awesome!!nd i can relate to the 1st very well:)

krl said...

why is it always grey?

30 songs? o.0 i expected you to have more. but i guess...

15 step first???
whatt???? it's ninth on mine and it will do well in this poll, i can tell.

it took me ages to make a list. i had to write out every song and write it in order of my favorite from my album


kid a

how to disappear
in limbo
morning bell
motion picture soundtrack
everything in its right place
kid a
national anthem

thats not my list. only an example. well, it took about 3 hours. i also found a way to do it by giving each song a number of points depending on how good the; percussion, vocals, lyrics, guitar, bass, originality and how well it goes together was. and surprisingly, 2+2=5 got 5060 points. but there there got 5800. so i now know wat i really do prefer.

i also got three new albums from the remaining money on that music store gift card; the two first portishead albums ('dummy' and 'portishead') and sigur ros' latest one 'meo sud i eyrum vio spilum endalaust'

its really good. youtube 'gobbledi gook' for an example. well, i hope you enjoy christmas. and, if you get ne radiohead albs, listen to them and update your listen. fuck hellogoodbye and dashboard and even muse. forget them until youve finished the poll.

i just need as many songs down as possible.


krl said...


idioteque or 15 step? 15 step is such a fresh opener but i dont think anything to even compare to that genius electronic beat of idioteque. nor the lyrics.

and it is currently 7am on the 25th. christmas. found it hard to sleep. had to resort to wasting my time on the computer. and i dont plan to open anything more the next two hours.

anywho, i was told i was allowed to open any of my presents last night (being christmas eve) and i came across this mysterious one that no one bu my dad seemed to recognise. i opened it and found a book that ive wanted for ages that i couldnt find in shops. and that's the kurt cobain journals, which is a giant 300-paged a4 sized book filled with his diary entries that were sealed away when he committed suicide. it just goes through his mind and what he was going through. its very good.

and kurt cobain. if you dont know who that is... then... then you are dead to me. so be prepared, i may ask :)