Just Move On.

"It stinks when somebody likes you but you don't like them back." ~ <3

Today was okay, I guess.

I'm really excited for Tuesday. We have two concerts that day-one during school where we go to a retirement home, & another one after school with the middle school I went to last year. I get to miss most of English. :D

But we have to walk to the retirement home (it's right across the street. Don't worry, it's not child abuse, you don't have to call child services (;). That day it's suppose to be freezing, windy, & oh yeah, it's suppose to snow. It never snows here. But when it finally does we have to walk in it. Everyone's probably gonna freak out. :)

World Geography was fun. I'm starting to really hate this one girl in my class, though. She keeps telling me my best guy friend is gay, which I'm almost positive he's not (it's a .01% chance that he might be, not that there's anything wrong with that. (;). It just irritates me! So what if he's girly, it doesn't mean he's gay! Grrr. I'm so mad. Five people in my world geo class have asked me if it was true. It's starting to get old. The real problem: she used to looove him. He doesn't have the same feelings for her, so I'm assuming that's why she's telling everyone this, to get back at him. :( She also has the most perverted mind ever. You don't even want to know some of the things she has said. ~shivers~

It is a horrible feeling. When you love someone, & they don't like you back. Even the other way around-when someone loves you but you don't like them. What are you suppose to do? Tell them the truth? Or just try not to lead them on? That's the problem with my friend-he's so awesome, but he leads a lot of people on. He doesn't mean to. It just sorta happens.

He feels horrible (or as horrible as he can feel :). She likes him, he doesn't like her, & now all of our world geo class thinks hes gay.

Wtf.

Peace.

*::♫♪♥'.victoria.'♥♪♫::*

A Perfect World?

I was watching the Twilight Zone a few weeks ago. There was this one episode where beautiful people were considered ugly, and ugly people were beautiful. It got me thinking: "What if we lived in a world where no one was judged about what they look like, but who they are on the inside?"

You've probably heard this saying: "The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen, nor touched ... but are felt in the heart." ~Helen Keller.

This is true. Who cares if someone is beautiful on the outside, if beauty is nonexistent on the inside? I know it matters; beauty is what gets you attracted to a person, but inner beauty is what makes you stay with that person forever. Having a kind heart is more important than anything when it comes to beauty. <3

Peace.

~*::♫♪♥'.victoria.'♥♪♫::*

What exactly is it...

"I don't want to be your friend, I just want to be your lover, no matter how it ends, no matter how it starts..." ~Radiohead

I love that. It's so true about me right now. And to y'all that don't know what I'm talking about, read the last few posts. <3

So how do you know when you really love someone? Is it just that feeling you get when you see them, when you have a million butterflies in your stomach, or how special you may think that person is? Or is it the way they talk to you? When they look into your eyes when they're suppose to be talking to someone else? When they stare at you from across the room, and you know that they're looking right at you?

You think that they like you. But your just too afraid to actually tell them the truth.

It's a really horrible feeling, not knowing whether they like you or not. You want to know, but your just too afraid to actually find out. You don't want to loose that friendship with them, but you still want to be "more than friends".

Which is kind of how that quote is. You just want to be "lovers". You don't want to only be their friend. You want to be something more special in the relationship.

Which explains how I feel right now.

:'(

~*::♫♪♥'.victoria.'♥♪♫::*

Storm

How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If I'd see you
This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
I know everything will be alright
I know everything is alright

I know you didn't bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Cause I'm so used to living underneath the surface

If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If I'd see you
This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be alright

And I will walk on water
You will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
I know everything will be alright
I know everthing is alright

Everything is alright
Everything is alright
~Lifehouse

I feel lost right now, like I'm in a dream. Nothing seems to be real. It's a horrible feeling. This song is so perfect, and I love it so much.

I need to tell him how I feel...

I want him to know...

I feel so alone right now. I don't know why. Sometimes I feel so great, then all of a sudden this big flood of lonliness washes over me.

Creepy, huh?

Peace.

~*::♫♪♥'.victoria.'♥♪♫::*

Should I, or Shouldn't I?

"He's just like the 2 year old that sits behind you at the movies and kicks the back of your seat the whole entire time..." ~Me =)

To explain that: Well, there's this one guy in my world geography class. He's so extremely cute, he's just a pain in my ass. He annoys me to no end, always telling me to shut up, and how no one cares, and he's just so mean!

Well, I think he kinda likes me.

You remember in second grade, how when you you liked someone you would always pick on them, and just make fun of them. I still don't understand why we use to do that. To hide our feelings? I'll never know.

But the point is, he constantly does that. I think he likes me, my friends think he likes me. It's irritating!

My friend went to school today. He was never sick, he just skipped school. Loser. I almost had a heart attack for no reason. We did good on the project, though. Only three groups had to present, and, of course, ours was chosen. And I lost rock, paper, scissors to him, so I had to present it. Blech. He just stood up there with me and held up the project. Ugh.

I really want to get over him. I like him so much. It's really horrible. My other friend likes him too, and she doesn't know that I like him. I would feel horrible if I ever went out with him. Should I? Should I ask him out? And should I feel horrible if he says yes? I've known him waaaay longer than my other friend has, and I've liked him a lot longer, too.

Idk. I might text him the question game. ;) (Not really, though)

For the rest of the week absolutely nothing exciting is going on. I am bored out of my mind.

Peace.

~*::♫♪♥'.victoria.'♥♪♫::*

Crazy Little Thing Called Love <3

Yesterday was fun. We worked on the project for about 8 and a half hours. We were texting our one friend and told her how we were making out and stuff. (Don't worry, we really didn't ;) She is just waaay too gullible. =)

I'm going to go get a new violin today. It's going to be boring yet fun at the same time. My parents think they know everything about picking one out, but they don't. Which really bugs me. =P

I'll post about it later.

Peace.

~*::♫♪♥'.victoria.'♥♪♫::*

You ever have this feeling...?

You know when there is this amazing person in your life, that you really like. A lot. And you always think about them, not in a stalker-ish way, but just thinking about life and them.

But you know you can never tell them, because you're friends, and you don't want to screw up your relationship with them.

Well, there is this totally amazing guy in two of my classes, I'm not gonna say who for obvious reasons.

But it's like whenever I'm with him, it's amazing. When I talk to him, it's awesome. Sorry for my lack of good adjectives, I just really don't know how to describe it.

And whenever him, me, and one of our friends talk, he always stands next to me. Really close to me.

I really like him, and I think he likes me, even though he acts like he doesn't around his friends. But when it's just us...

And I felt that I really needed to say this:

When I had lived in a different state than I do now (don't want any creepy stalkers out there, do I? =) I really liked this one guy. Really really, almost to the point where it was almost love. When we were together, well, it felt amazing. He was probably the perfect guy. Well, when I was about to tell him that I liked him, that's when I found out we were going to be moving. It was horrible. I still wonder what it would've been like if we were together.

Idk why I'm posting about this, I just really felt the need to write about it. I feel better now =)

Peace.

~*::♫♪♥'.victoria.'♥♪♫::*

New Violin?

I was going crazy today! You know how we're suppose to set the clocks back an hour for Daylight Savings Time? Well today seemed to go on FOREVER! It seemed like the day would NOT end!

I might get a new violin. Which I guess is cool. But I think if I get a new one I wont be able to get a new laptop, which I REALLY need. My computer keeps on freezing, and I don't know how to fix it. It freezes like every ten minutes. So I NEED a new one, which sucks, 'cause I really need a new violin too. =P

Well, I might as well talk about this since I really don't have anything else to say: remember the girl who I said likes my best guy friend? Well she likes someone different now. And he's really ugly.

I know that looks don't matter, but he is REALLY ugly and short. Not that short people aren't awesome, but he's shorter than me. And I'm short. And my friend is taller than me. By at least 3 or 4 inches. And he looks like a leprechaun. No kidding, he really does!

And it's not just that he's ugly, he treats her badly. They went our for a day or two, maybe a little more, I don't remember, and he had cheated on her. But she still 'loves' him. And he's a total jerk. And she wants to change him! How funny is that?! Very. My friend always says: "You can take a man out of a trailer park, but you can't take the trailer park out of the man." That is so true. But that is exactally how he is. It still creeps me out when she says how much she likes him. Eew.

I know I shouldn't be controlling who she goes out with, but he is a jerk. Don't you think I should make her not date him? I think if you need to change a guy in order to date him, then you shouldn't go out with him at all.

On a brighter note, tomorrow is Monday! I hate the weekends, I'm bored out of my mind by the time it's Sunday night. Blah.

Peace.

~*::♫♪♥'.victoria.'♥♪♫::*

How Could This Possibly Be Love?

My friend just texted me again. She likes a different guy now. Except she said she didn't like him. She loooooves him.

Sure, I'm being a good friend, texting her back saying. "OMG! Who is he?! Is he hot?!?!?!" and all the things that girls should say to each other when they find out that their friend likes someone else. You should be supportive, which is what I'm trying to be.

How could she possibly 'loooooove' him though?

I'm a strong believer in love at first sight. But she's only 15. How could she love him? And he's a senior, around 18, I think. Now THAT sounds kinda wrong to me, don't you think? It's better than the 37 year old stalker she talked to on MySpace. It's a long story, and you don't want to know, trust me.

And I don't think she has ever even talked to him. Just seen him in the hallway before class. How could you know if you like someone or not just by looking at them?

But it is possible, I guess. Women's Intuition. I can tell just by looking at someone if they are bad or good. I just can't tell if I looooove them or not. You need time to get to know each other, and to just talk. If you can talk to each other for hours about nothing, and you feel good when you're around them, and you get excited when you recieve a text from them, then you like them. Possibly love them.

"I just think we are too young to fully understand the strong meanings of 'love' and 'hate'."

Peace. ♥

~*::♫♪♥'.victoria.'♥♪♫::*