Angels on the Moon..

"It's the crap that bores the crap out of crap" :)

Again I wasn't able to sleep very well last night. But I did do some very productive things: Learned the lyrics to "Faust Arp" by Radiohead, which, might I add, was very hard. I can now sing along to it almost perfectly, even though I can't sing for crap :); went to bed at 10:30, but only till 11 did I realize how early it was since I couldn't fall asleep; texted my friend till about 12 since she's out of town and she's and hour behind; learned the lyrics to "15 Step", which is also by Radiohead; and wrote this:

I feel like I’m falling,
I’m going nowhere.
No one hears me.
No one cares.

No one’s listening
To what I have to say.
I’m lost
And no one’s showing me the way.

I’m trying to speak
But no words are coming out.
I’m all alone,
I think I took the wrong route.

I cry myself to sleep,
I have no one to comfort me.
I feel so blind,
I can hardly see.

There are two roads,
I’m not sure which I should take.
One I’m not sure where it leads.
The other could be a horrible mistake.

I want to find a way,
I don’t want to be alone.
I need someone with me.
I’m not sure where I should go.

But no one cares,
Or at least that’s how it feels.
There’s no one I can trust,
No one to help me heal.

I promise I'll make some better posts once I go back to school, it is so boring being stuck at home. :P

Peace.

~*::♫♪♥'.victoria.'♥♪♫::*

Blah?

You gotta love that picture. :)

Yes, I know it is nearly 12 at night. I know I should probably be in bed. Even though I'm exhausted, I just don't feel like it. Great excuse, right? :)

Hmm...I think I'll post one of the poems I've written. I'm starting to put all of the poems I'm writing in this computer. It's nice to have somewhere to put all of the crap I have. I had so many pictures and stuff in my old one, it was a mess. Anywho, here it is:

It feels like you’re watching me,
Even though I know you’re not there.
Whenever you’re around,
I can’t help but stare.

I want to be yours,
I’ve never had any doubt.
If you ever read this,
Could you figure this out?

It’s always been you,
Don’t you understand?
You’re all I can think about.
You’re everything but bland.

The way you look at me,
No words could describe.
Don’t you believe me?
Can’t you feel the vibe?

All I‘ve ever wanted
Was to feel you touch.
Why can’t that happen?
Is it just too much?

I want you to know
that I love you, for you.
You’re perfect to me,
If only you knew.

It's not that great. But whatever. I want to start writing about more abstract stuff, not just about love. It's starting to get very repetitive to me. Hmm...I think I might try that later tonight. :P

I think I'll go to bed now. I feel like I'm gonna pass out.

Peace.

~*::♫♪♥'.victoria.'♥♪♫::*

Just Move On.

"It stinks when somebody likes you but you don't like them back." ~ <3

Today was okay, I guess.

I'm really excited for Tuesday. We have two concerts that day-one during school where we go to a retirement home, & another one after school with the middle school I went to last year. I get to miss most of English. :D

But we have to walk to the retirement home (it's right across the street. Don't worry, it's not child abuse, you don't have to call child services (;). That day it's suppose to be freezing, windy, & oh yeah, it's suppose to snow. It never snows here. But when it finally does we have to walk in it. Everyone's probably gonna freak out. :)

World Geography was fun. I'm starting to really hate this one girl in my class, though. She keeps telling me my best guy friend is gay, which I'm almost positive he's not (it's a .01% chance that he might be, not that there's anything wrong with that. (;). It just irritates me! So what if he's girly, it doesn't mean he's gay! Grrr. I'm so mad. Five people in my world geo class have asked me if it was true. It's starting to get old. The real problem: she used to looove him. He doesn't have the same feelings for her, so I'm assuming that's why she's telling everyone this, to get back at him. :( She also has the most perverted mind ever. You don't even want to know some of the things she has said. ~shivers~

It is a horrible feeling. When you love someone, & they don't like you back. Even the other way around-when someone loves you but you don't like them. What are you suppose to do? Tell them the truth? Or just try not to lead them on? That's the problem with my friend-he's so awesome, but he leads a lot of people on. He doesn't mean to. It just sorta happens.

He feels horrible (or as horrible as he can feel :). She likes him, he doesn't like her, & now all of our world geo class thinks hes gay.

Wtf.

Peace.

*::♫♪♥'.victoria.'♥♪♫::*

Your Heart is an Empty Room

"And all you see is where else you could be when you're at home, and out on the street are so many possibilities to not be alone..." ~Death Cab For Cutie

Every time I live somewhere, I lose a friend, whether they just snap (long story), or I move, but this time, it's different.

I'd rather not explain it; at this point I don't even want to think about it. I miss her so much already, and just a few hours ago she told me she was leaving. At least I think so (I couldn't fully understand the voicemail she left me, but most of it I could). She's not moving, she's still going to live here, but it's going to feel like forever till I see her again. It will feel as if she really did move.

Huh, I thought blogging about it might help a little. It didn't help much.

I don't think I'm going to post at all this week, even though I have the whole week off, so if I don't, Happy Turkey Day to everyone! :)

Oh, and this was my horoscope for today:

Cancer (6/22-7/22)
The feelings you have been trying to hide refuse to be hidden, so open up already!

I thought it was ironic. It was a half day today, so of course he wasn't in school.

Peace.

~*::♫♪♥'.victoria.'♥♪♫::*

Grrr.

Today was a suck-ish day.

Well, in world geography my friend never came to school. (The guy that I did the project with.) He's sick. I don't think he's going to be able to go to school tomorrow either, so now I'll have to present the project on my own. Grrr.

We're reading Romeo and Juliet in English. All my friends are all depressed and like, "Do we REALLY have to read this?!" I like it, though. It's really interesting.

I'm really tired, I barely got any sleep last night. I haven't been able to sleep very much this past week. It's annoying. I just want to go to sleep right now.

Haha I got this really great text from my friend:

3 Facts of Life:

1. You can't touch all of your teeth with your tongue.

2. You're a retard cause you just tried it.

3. Now you're smiling cause your an idiot!

Haha I actually tried it! =)

Peace.

~*::♫♪♥'.victoria.'♥♪♫::*

New Violin?

I was going crazy today! You know how we're suppose to set the clocks back an hour for Daylight Savings Time? Well today seemed to go on FOREVER! It seemed like the day would NOT end!

I might get a new violin. Which I guess is cool. But I think if I get a new one I wont be able to get a new laptop, which I REALLY need. My computer keeps on freezing, and I don't know how to fix it. It freezes like every ten minutes. So I NEED a new one, which sucks, 'cause I really need a new violin too. =P

Well, I might as well talk about this since I really don't have anything else to say: remember the girl who I said likes my best guy friend? Well she likes someone different now. And he's really ugly.

I know that looks don't matter, but he is REALLY ugly and short. Not that short people aren't awesome, but he's shorter than me. And I'm short. And my friend is taller than me. By at least 3 or 4 inches. And he looks like a leprechaun. No kidding, he really does!

And it's not just that he's ugly, he treats her badly. They went our for a day or two, maybe a little more, I don't remember, and he had cheated on her. But she still 'loves' him. And he's a total jerk. And she wants to change him! How funny is that?! Very. My friend always says: "You can take a man out of a trailer park, but you can't take the trailer park out of the man." That is so true. But that is exactally how he is. It still creeps me out when she says how much she likes him. Eew.

I know I shouldn't be controlling who she goes out with, but he is a jerk. Don't you think I should make her not date him? I think if you need to change a guy in order to date him, then you shouldn't go out with him at all.

On a brighter note, tomorrow is Monday! I hate the weekends, I'm bored out of my mind by the time it's Sunday night. Blah.

Peace.

~*::♫♪♥'.victoria.'♥♪♫::*

Still Tired...

This weekend was pretty boring compared to the last few weekends:

Yesterday I felt extremely sick. I had really bad stomach pains. And on Friday night I must have slept in an awkward position because I had back pains all yesterday, and it's better today but not completely. =P

I'm still so tired, I don't know why! I slept in yesterday since I didn't go to the plant sale, and I slept in till 8 today. Which is surprisingly late for me. My mom keeps on threatening to take me to the doctor because she thinks I'm deathly sick 'cause I'm always so tired! Haha! =)

Hmmm...this week nothing's going on. Except this one guy is coming to our orchestra on Friday to check out our instruments and see if there's any damage on them to "make our orchestra sound better". Blah.

Halloween is Friday. Can you believe it?! It seems school just started a few weeks ago. The first quarter is almost over, which is the first nine weeks in school. Yay! I can't wait for Christmas either. I hope it snows this year! It just doesn't feel like Christmas to me without snow. It's weird.

My computer is so stupid! I think it has a virus on it, it keeps on freezing. I had to restart it four times yesterday because it kept on freezing. Then today it wouldn't let me shut it down, so I had to crawl behind my desk to turn off the power switch. It is so stupid. =P

That's basically it. =)

Peace.

~*::♫♪♥'.victoria.'♥♪♫::*

Ugh =P

Still tired. I don't know what to post about. I'm sooo bored =P

I have to take the fitness gram on Wednesday. What it is, is a program that tests your physical fitness. It's stupid. You have to do sit ups, crunches, push ups, and all of those kinds of things. Then you run a mile. That, I am so going to fail.

Thankfully I don't have any vocab in English this week. Woot.

Mid-terms are this week. I think I'm going to pass all of them. For orchestra we don't have a written one, we just have to play scales and stuff we do everyday. World Geography will be easy, and so will English. And French I know I will get a 100 or a *gasp!* 98. I highly doubt I will get anything lower than that.

I'm thinking I might go to the final plant sale weekend this Saturday. I'm still not sure if I will or not, but I might.

Peace.

~*::♫♪♥'.victoria.'♥♪♫::*

Plant Sale Week 2

Hey y'all!

I just got back from the second week of the plant sale. It was fun. For three hours my friends and I goofed around holding up signs in front of the school and looking like idiots (right, Taylor?! haha =)

Yep, so that's it for my weekend. Tomorrow I'm going to sleep in, since I haven't slept in later than six for about a week. I'm exhausted.

I think I'm gonna go sleep now.

Peace.

~*::♫♪♥'.victoria.'♥♪♫::*